AOA's maknae had an interview with ICaoLu on Youtube. Some of her quotes and the video below.
"I was 18 years old during 'Short Skirt,' and it was so difficult. Why do they suddenly unzip my pants on stage?"
"I thought I would feel good if we won first place and things went well, but that wasn't the case. I was incredibly depressed starting from 'Short Hair' after winning first place. There was a lot of work, but I hadn't received any settlement payments until 'Short Hair,' and they invested a lot into the group. Since they invested so generously, the amount we had to repay was huge, and first of all, I didn't know what 'sexy' meant. It was also a time when I hadn't even dated. I didn't know what 'sexy' meant, but things were going well. But even when I looked at myself on stage, I didn't find myself attractive."
"The other members were pretty and sparkling, but I felt lifeless on stage. Since we won first place with something I wasn't good at, I felt like I had to keep doing things I couldn't do. I can't be sexy, so it drove me crazy. I felt like I couldn't do this, that I was incompetent, but since the members were good, I had to keep pace with them, and it was too overwhelming. I hated myself so much. I didn't feel pretty, nor did I seem to be good at it. I think I didn't trust myself enough. If I had just been a little more confident, wouldn't people have looked upon me kindly because I was young even if I made a mistake? Back then, I felt like making a mistake would be a disaster and that I would fail at any moment. Because of that anxiety, I lost confidence, and since I was constantly frustrated and pressured, I couldn't enjoy it. That is what I regret the most."
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